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i was rereading some stuff i wrote to you like a year ago sorry i was so idk pissy i cant think of my alt word for that , ab u saying you had adhd idk erm i lowkey felt like. well some people lwk just spout that and claim it for everything but i think if you research whatever it is you probs have a good chance of knowing whether or not u have it, ofc idk some people might be looking for stuff and claiming theyve found it but i dont think thats what its like for everyone i was lwk just really annoying and also trying to deny that anything was wrong with myself either, not true not even if you ignore it yk, ocd is a perfect explanation to what ive experienced especially in SO many manifestations in the past two years, and lowkey idk something like 30% of people with ocd have autism or other way around and erm my brother and mother and father have all guessed that before. so. that might be as well possible but uhm i know thats not an excuse for my behavior, not is any thing possibly wrong with me or what my current opinion was then of what was or might be wrong with me, i am simply trying to offer an explanation for why i was rude hah. i very much apologize and hope as well you will forgive me.

i said crap the other day and my mom said i have NEVER heard that kind of LANGUAGE out of your MOUTH BEFORE young LADY she said the 𝓯 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓭 the other day btw i can go on scratch again idk if i told u that

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

anyways yeah im kinda hashedtag living life on the edge rn haha 😎😎😎

2/19/2026, 2:05:43 AM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

i also said what the freak while paraphrasing what someone said and i also say #(whatever) sometimes which shows i know the internet exists and i acknowledged i know that kpop exists the other day too (related to a non murderous classmate of mine)

2/19/2026, 2:07:09 AM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

also the other day we were talking and i said the ethiopian language and she said amharic and i said yueah, thats the ethiopian language, and she was like call it by its proper name and i was like its amharic but its also. the ethiopian language. the language of ethiopia and she was like yeah but call it by its proper name and so i said ok ( her name) . her given name . 😜 she didnt talk to me for like three hours

2/19/2026, 2:13:23 AM

awestruckrevival:

what. this is crazy. what.

2/20/2026, 2:51:48 AM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

yeah i was lwk a little too silly ! but it ok my dad laughed at it when i told him

3/7/2026, 12:00:50 AM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

i didnt clarifiy but i said what the freak. not what the 𝓯.

3/7/2026, 6:32:21 AM

omgg i luv ur poster i forgot what theeyre called 😭😭😭 the thing behind ur pfp on ur pf

awestruckrevival:

banner !! ty i drew it myself in like 10 mins when i was bored

1/30/2026, 3:57:18 AM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

yahhh omg i might be stupid cries but omgg its so prettii

2/2/2026, 2:18:51 AM

hi :3

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

im going to yap here a bit lol,… if ok…

1/24/2026, 6:36:38 AM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

i am thinking about submiting to a writing competition this year, as i have always wanted to, problem is, i HAVENT WRITTEN IN SO LONG ITS CRAZY. i think the trick is just to keep writing, im probs gonna do that, try to write for even just ten minutes per day, its also probs good for your brain too or smth idk… and i really love writing i just feel as though all my ideas are boring probs cause i also dont READ ENOUGH,,,… but even if i feel my ideas might be interesting i find i usually have plagerized… in my mind… probs cause i read like ONE BOOK A FREAKING MONTH… anyways i think the thing to start with is just a prompt!! i did that yesterday and wrote a little… quite like it. of course not for any competition (they usually have prompts tho, state/county ones at least), but to get back into the groove of writing i think it is not so bad… the inspiration will come later (i assume)

1/24/2026, 6:41:46 AM

awestruckrevival:

OMG !!!!!! i write like once every two months when i have an actual idea and everyone tells me it’s really good but the inspiration has not hit. the characters live rent-free in my head though i love my ocs

1/24/2026, 4:50:23 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

help I NEVER MAKE OCS when i write i dont consider them my ocs ,, i just consider them my characters… ive legit had ocs since i was like eight and ive been writing all that time, never considered the characters ocs and never written ab the ocs i did consider ocs cries real tears

1/25/2026, 5:14:26 AM

whenever i open my computer it gives me sports results and i always check to see if its someone youve mentioned :3 it hasnt been for a while just baseball idk if you like baseball if so what teams so i may check how they are failing or perhaps not

awestruckrevival:

the colorado rockies um but get ready for the worst baseball team imaginable they SUCK

5/13/2025, 5:01:21 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

of course they do

5/14/2025, 5:20:54 AM

did you died

awestruckrevival:

no sorry i did not

5/13/2025, 5:01:33 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

good to know

5/14/2025, 5:20:39 AM

why did my spotify just play the most pedophilic song which i have NEVER HEARD IN MY LIFE which sounds NOTHING SIMILIAR when i played the game by mary hopkin

had the most horrible conversation ever on roblox just now so bad i dont think i should even retell most of it but this person was obvs a predator and trying to get me hooked yet kept insulting my religion and saying i was too uptight (they made a suggestive joke and i didnt respond well lol)

awestruckrevival:

im

4/28/2025, 5:02:51 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

and bee tee dubbs i wasnt just bringing up my religion out of the blue they asked me if i was having “love life troubles” (we were playing a silly little very chaotic therapists office game sorta thing where you come up with the most random stories you can think of and i just sat in the chair and said “idk” LOL but then they started like just going down the list of possible issues ig,,) and i was like no?? im thirteen and tehy were like so? and i was like its a sin in my religion??? and they were like damn. loser. cant get any. anyways like what religion?? and then started quizing me on christianity and also claiming they were catholic LOL

4/29/2025, 5:14:21 AM

i meant souple i get them confused a bit,, okay ill link the post to you rq

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

https://wasteof.money/posts/680a54c36a6594a392531142

4/25/2025, 8:16:53 PM

awestruckrevival:

IM GONNA CRU I FAILED TO REALIZE YOU MADE THE WHOLE THING UP??????? THBIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY ANYWAY YOU SHOULD RELOAD A BIT UNTIL YOU FIND MINE

4/25/2025, 9:01:00 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

HELP HUHHHH YEAH NO I THOUGHT IT UP IN LIKE AN HOUR LMAO I DIDNT WANT TO READ MY ASSIGNED REAADING FOR TODAY

4/25/2025, 9:16:42 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

I SAID HE WAS BORN IN 1812

4/25/2025, 9:23:10 PM

awestruckrevival:

i made two actually one is about myself the other one i will not reveal to you until you find it

4/25/2025, 9:04:44 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

oh that’ll be soooooo hard

4/25/2025, 9:16:55 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

https://wikiverse.pages.dev/article/?id=85 found the first one

4/25/2025, 9:20:23 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

ive nary a clue

4/25/2025, 9:31:36 PM

MEOW

they randomly dm me sometimes, just to talk. NOBODY EVER DOES THAT OTHER THAN OCCASIONALLY SONNET. JUST TO TALk. TO ME.

awestruckrevival:

they’re the prettiest person ever and they enjoy talking to me. ME. they don’t like like me i know they have a crush irl but AT LEAS TTHEY LIKE TALKING TO ME.

1/2/2025, 2:29:56 AM

awestruckrevival:

oh boy of all the online friends to get a crush on, in all the circumstances to get a crush on them in, it had to be them and this

1/2/2025, 2:30:21 AM

awestruckrevival:

theyre so pretty and funny and nice and amazing and i want to give them a hug and maaaaaaaaaybe a kiss. I AM GOING OUT OF MY MIND. IN A GOOD WAY AND A BAD WAY. SOMEHOW AT THE SAME TIME.

1/2/2025, 2:33:37 AM

when ya come back online , i’m 90% i’m overreacting about everything it’s just a lot (not that you aren’t an amazing friend dwdw) i just hate hate hate being ignored ESPECIALLY when someone used to respond to everything i’d say which has happened so much, esp lately that I’m going a little insane! so

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

i’m at that horrible in between super busy place where i’m SUPER BUSY and STRESSED but i have like two minutes of freetime and sometjing stupidll take up all my thought during that time :///

12/17/2024, 8:24:09 PM

awestruckrevival:

im sorry i swear i read everything you say i just dont know how to respond to all of it im sorry

12/17/2024, 8:54:00 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

NOT YOU you at least respond to some of it and even so i love you so much i could never be mad a t you probably dw i

12/17/2024, 9:09:46 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

can confirm to the overreacting part i talked to him in gwdfi today and he seemed fairly pleasant so

12/18/2024, 3:11:08 AM

i want the readers to sympathize with rich kid at the beginning, and the morals of everyone to seem really clear (rich kid’s the protagonist, sylvia’s the antagonist), but by about halfway through the story, everyone’s really morally ambiguous and people have legitimate reasons for still liking rich kid and disliking sylvia, but people also have legitimate reasons for liking sylvia and disliking rich kid.

awestruckrevival:

i need to actually develop rich kid as a character and figure out how to work their adventures into the plot tbh IMSOHHAPPY DONT HURT YOURSELF CHAT DISTRACT YOURSELF BY WRITING A FANTASY STORY WITH MAGIC AND CRIME AND HOT LESBIANS AND GOVERNMENTS BEING OVERTHROWN INSTEAD

12/17/2024, 5:39:38 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

:DD

12/17/2024, 7:05:51 PM

awestruckrevival:

HELP????

12/17/2024, 7:26:01 PM

awestruckrevival:

okay we’re making this the official fantasy story with magic and crime and hot lesbians and governments being overthrown brainstorming thread

characters i have named:

sylvia (robber girl)

hazel (rich kid)

lydia (the professor’s granddaughter)

characters i have not yet named:

sylvia’s gf (enemies to lovers thing seems kinda cool or like. strained work relationship because they rob rich people together but lowkey hate each other to lovers thing. idfk bro)

the professor (old non-binary person who teaches sylvia what the books she stole mean)

the professor’s son (not really an important character to the plot but he’s lydia’s father and vv important to her so i need to give him personality)

hazel’s great-aunt (badass old woman not as hateable as hazel is)

sylvia’s dead parents + dead little sister (traumatic backstory)

12/17/2024, 7:30:51 PM

awestruckrevival:

oh yeah more for the chars i have not named:

royal family (idfk what’s going on but they need to exist)

12/17/2024, 7:34:40 PM

awestruckrevival:

we hath named the professor their name is julian

12/17/2024, 7:47:38 PM

awestruckrevival:

worldbuilding!!!

i need names for things hhhh

everyone thinks magic is something youre born with, but its actually something youre taught and it being something youre born with is a well-executed lie by the upper class so good that it even convinced themselves

uh. forests and mountains and stuff this place is colorado but magic real not clickbait

upper class is american high upper class + low upper class, while “lower class” really spans from like. american high middle class all the way down to american low lower class

I NEED TO NAME THINGS AAAAAAAAAAAA

12/17/2024, 7:34:19 PM

christmas is so funny i think i’ve pointed at holly and said ‘crickets ref..,,,’ at least three times

awestruckrevival:

real

12/17/2024, 5:34:31 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

my radio mentioned that something as well. they were like “*plays a little bit of everyday* putting the holly in your holly jolly christmas :3” and i literally fell off my couch

12/17/2024, 7:04:47 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

what did YOU mean real huhuhuh

4/13/2025, 7:38:01 AM

awestruckrevival:

very good question

4/25/2025, 5:01:59 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

CRIES

4/25/2025, 8:06:49 PM

i love you peels all my skin off i lobve you ssomuc

awestruckrevival:

dont love me so much you peel all your skin off,,,,,,

12/17/2024, 5:34:50 PM

forg3t_m3_n0tz:

was just sad i won’t dw ily

12/17/2024, 7:03:10 PM