sooo it turns out that despite them being prone to exploding sometimes, having
a meta-structure for my mind actually is beneficial
at least more so than just floating in an empty void
that has a tendency to stay empty
unfortunately I can't come up with a new structure to use
(yes, this oftentimes fairly literally means a "physical" structure)
(it helps to give me some sort of anchor point and organization to my mind)
(turns out that using your own mind can be weird and unintuitive, or maybe that's just me)