My head feels like it's slowly crushing my brain, my lungs feel like they can't get enough oxygen, every muscle in my body is tense yet relaxed whilst simultaneously being sore, my family hates me, my friends hate me, I jokingly call myself insane but I might really be losing it... Music is the only thing that quietens everything... I'm truly all alone in this world... A funny thought, an introvert searches for solus and when it finds them, it's by everyone else stepping away, even those who were held dear... I feel like I'm walking down a never ending highway, wandering pointlessly and without end... For what am I being cursed? Perhaps it was my birth... Maybe I shouldn't have existed... Maybe that's my crime. I hoped to never end up like my parents... But "the apple doesn't fall far from the tree" I used to search for whatever could remove emotions and make me go numb... But total numbness is just as burdensome... Sometimes I wonder if life is even worth living anymore... Would anyone truly miss me? Would anyone even notice? Would anyone care? Would anyone even remember me? I'm tired... I need to sleep