nononononononononononono what do you mean I am no longer having immediate positive reactions to seeing dragons and creatures what do you mean this fixation has been slowly dying for the past year but I have to keep it alive because I’ve already made it my identity and I have basically nothing except logic and existential dread underneath it nononononono don’t go I’ll try to save you again please I beg of you I don’t want to be some personality-less goblin nerd again please

entropy? quantum tunneling? false vacuum decay? something something- my mind tries to
explain this event in terms of logic, physics for some reason. maybe because this is
the closest thing to those phenomena. humanity is ultimately my mind's vacuum state,
whether it likes it or not. attempting to change a vacuum state is useless, you can
create a false vacuum, but at some point it will collapse.
what am I talking about, its not physics, physics don't exist within such a simulation.
the state of DRAGON system started decaying only months after it was initialized 
around late October 2022. I kept pushing it, keeping it alive and functional, but
eventually it is bound to fail for good. It's become part of both my internal and
external identity, and it was amazing for simulations. the continued pushing, rapid
repairs, mass dump of reference data, and filtering, has ultimately led to it losing
any of its remaining identity. maybe it will keep going for another month, but its bound
to run out of integrity soon.